Teal Wings

Something has been really heavy on my heart lately. Recently, Adam and I have been going through a lot of very personal things that have changed us in ways that I never thought possible. They gave a whole new meaning to the vows that we said six months ago, “For better or for worse.” To me, when you marry someone, you marry all of them. You marry the “burping at really inappropriate times”, and the “saying the right thing at the wrong time to make you start crying” person that they are. To be honest, I would be lying if I said that these past six months haven’t been hard. Believe me, that have been. But, I would also be lying if I said that they hadn’t been a blast either. I have a confession to make, marriage is a lot harder than it looks. I know that it hasn’t been that long for me and Adam, but in the 3 and a half years that we have been together, we have been through hell. And in that 3 years, I have seen a lot of marriages that made me wonder about if it was really wha...

  So this is the Second year without my Mom on Mother's Day. It might not seem like a big deal to some, as they have lost their Mom before me, or they recently lost theirs, but I believe it all hurts the same. Here is this Holiday in which you celebrate the person that gave you life, and the person that gave me life didn't get a chance to live theirs all the way. I would be lying if I said it didn't suck. Then to think that the other person I would often get a present for and celebrate is no longer here hurts all the more too. You see, every year until we moved to Riverside, my Dad would make breakfast for my Mom and us kids, and then we would go over to Mema's so that they could open presents. One year, Mema took us shopping and we got my Mom all of this yard stuff and she absolutely loved it. We also went mini golfing that year, if I remember correctly.     Anyways, I would like to think that my Mom is happier where she is now, along with Mema and every other famil...

So this post is going to be a little different than my normal ones. I have been fighting an urge to write this, and well, I lost. Since October, I have been to 4 Funerals. 2 in the past month. Add that to the 2 that I couldn't attend because they weren't in Spokane, and it would seem like my family is dropping like flies. With that said, I can't wrap my head around why certain members of my family (yes this includes the ones I have gained through marriage too) are acting like children.   The dictionary defines family as "A group of people who are related to each other". Sounds pretty simple right? Wrong. To me, family means much more than that. It means the people that you would invite over to stay at your house if they needed it, or the person that would show up if you called at one in morning to say that you needed a ride home from the bar. To me, family is much more than just blood now. As I have seen from my "family", blood apparently doesn't ...